Stay Reckless&Live Free
Just another blog about things I love, random moments of my life, and dreams I want to fufill.
Stay Reckless&Live Free
"Believing that you could actually change was one of my worst mistakes"

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the sound I heard when I was 9 and my father slammed the front door so hard behind him I swear to god it shook the whole house. For the next 3 years I watched my mother break her teeth on vodka bottles. I think she stopped breathing when he left. I think part of her died. I think he took her heart with him when he walked out. Her chest is empty, just a shattered mess or cracked ribs and depression pills.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s all the blood in the sink. It’s the night that I spent 12 hours in the emergency room waiting to see if my sister was going to be okay, after the boy she loved, told her he didn’t love her anymore. It’s the crying, and the fluorescent lights, and white sneakers and pale faces and shaky breaths and blood. So much blood.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the time that I had to stay up for two days straight with my best friend while she cried and shrieked and threw up on my bedroom floor because her boyfriend fucked his ex. I swear to god she still has tear streaks stained onto her cheeks. I think when you love someone, it never really goes away.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s the six weeks we had a substitute in English because our teacher was getting divorced and couldn’t handle getting out of bed. When she came back she was smiling. But her hands shook so hard when she held her coffee, you could see that something was broken inside. And sometimes when things break, you can’t fix them. Nothing ever goes back to how it was. I got an A in English that year. I think her head was always spinning too hard to read any essays.

It’s not that I don’t love you. It’s that I do.

It’s not that I don’t love you. (via exoticwild)

My heart beats
that much quicker
when he looks at

It takes off like
a hummingbird.

My hands start to
and my pulse
I can’t
stand still.

Have you ever wanted someone
so badly
you could cry
out of frustration?

I can picture it all
from this

There’s a feeling
in my
that we’ve been here

He pulls me in
like a magnet
and all I want is
to feel
this draw,
all I want to feel
is his heat
and his heart,
but you can’t always get
what you want.

Libby H. (via thecouplet)


🚬🚬 smooooookkkkk eeevvveeerrrryyyy dddaaaayyyyy 🎶

HUF blog
"The thought of someone else kissing you makes me sick."
(via shouldnotcry)

X na We Heart It -
Hi Tumblr
Longboarding at it’s finest

Tumblr on We Heart It.